It's been far too long since I've indulged in blogging. I don't have an earth-shattering, mind-blowing purpose for writing tonight; if only to fulfill selfish purposes, that will be enough.
Today has been a rough day. It started out well enough; I was in a good mood, had my necessary cup of Joe, snuggled with the kiddos, got through some chores, etc. This afternoon, though, some old demons hit home. I started wrestling with old feelings of insufficiency and falling short. "You're human," you may say, to which I would think, I believe so.... but that's just it. I'm human, surrounded by other humans, who are not designed to fulfill me. Their sole purpose is not to revolve their worlds around me. SHOCKER, right? But it is so. It's that God-shaped hole again. He put it there for a reason. When people have lives, other things going on, when people can't completely invest in you, the Lord calls. He is waiting for you to come to him, shoulders slumped, looking for comfort. And when you go, he will be there.
I was extremely comforted tonight in the reading of a lovely blog I follow, which can be found here. Her post was titled "Chosen" and hit so close to home, it hurt. But again, I was reminded of God's awesome power. While in the throes of emotional distress, he uses another one of His children for healing. I am so grateful for the clever workings of the Lord, and find comfort in His plan.
If you get nothing else from this post, I pray you find comfort in loneliness, also. You are not alone, and the Lord is always there to bring you peace. You need only call to Him.